Is still being cleared. I’m on an interesting journey lately of personal growth and discovery. I’ve been learning to feel true feelings deeply. I’ve been deciding to feel them to their full extent, painful or pleasurable as they might be. If you don’t feel the pain, you wont truly appreciate the pleasure. So don’t be surprised if you don’t even know me the next time you see me ;)
*My salvation lies in your love*
I want to do yoga.. I want to be one of those girls that does pilates, but I’m not structured enough for things like that.. I’m not quite that organized. So instead I just play. I go outside and soak life in through my pores. Breathe it in through my nose and deep into my lungs. I absorb the colors, as vivid as blood and mud and death and earth.. I absorb them into my eyes, and appreciate the beauty that I behold.
The beauty I am not a part of, but merely a witness to. Existing, twirling..journeying along.. some steps light and free, frolic like. Some heavy and mud caked.. ten lbs per step.. but nonetheless, standing next to it all. Delighting in it, rejoicing in it.. blessed to be here at this time in it. Amazed and humbled by it. I laugh too much. I love to deep. I’m too honest and too real. too this too that. what was I trying to be again? I smile so big it hurts sometimes. I wouldnt trade it for all the riches in the world <3 Come play?
Note to Self:
Find time someday soon to elaborate on the observation that I’ve spent a lot of time lately thinking about. How in an age of technological communication (facebook, twitter, texting, etc) the more we press to stay connected to one another, the more distant we are becoming. It’s so funny, so true.. we’re at a place in time where you can know exactly what your “friends” are doing, basically the instant they are doing it; yet we are trading the chance to forge lasting personal relationships, for moments of sitting miles, even inches apart..and text messaging each other. When you’re only a phone call away but type I love you instead. How the tone in someones voice is completely lost. Wit is muffled and assholes are crowned in undeserving right. It’s just very interesting to me.. but I dont have time to expand on that today.. so note to self.. do so later ;)
